.forgive me.

.The sun may shine but the sky is gray
It gets harder to keep my tears at bay
I know I’ve hurt you, and now in me you’ll never believe
Please don’t take this as reason enough to leave
'Cause you said you’d always be there and I trusted you for it
We’re both haunted by this crime I never wanted to commit
You say I’m a liar, 'cause I’m at fault
Why is it so hard to find words to revolt?
You repeat the twisted words you heard from fools
Then you say my silence confirms these “facts” to be true
But I’m not silent. What I am is speechless…

.you taught me how to...love the rain.

Make me believe you're falling for me
just to make me fall into you
Blind my vision, so i can't see
the chaos that you're leading me through
Give me shelter under your violet cloud
saying it's so i don't get wet
thinking i don't know what it's all about
but i do, so stop messing with my head

What if i told you that i loved you
just as easily
as you say to me that you do
every time you look at me?
Would that change the fact that none of this is true?
and that you only say you love the rain
to make me love you...

I ask you what you're thinking
i never get an answer
I only want to clear my doubts, just a conversation
but in return you only move in closer

Make me believe that i want this
just because it's all you want from me
All that's missing with us, I do not miss
'cause this isn't how love should be

These raindrops aren't sweet anymore
their cold caress scares me
You're drowning me, ravaging me to the core
And then? Drenched and devoid of emotion, will you let me be?


Make me believe that this is love
just so that i'll return it blindly
Make me wonder, when'll it finally be enough?
wonder, why do i let you do this to me?


I'm not sure when, but what if i wake up
and what if the sky is clear?
I won't tell you i saw through your haze
just that i held you dear
What if i walk away into the sun, and you knew
that i only said i loved the rain
because i loved you.

[28.8.2010]

.snow*flake.

.maybe my heart is made of ice

that's why my hand in yours is so cold

maybe i cant handle a compromise

that's why my words are so brazen, too bold


i'm shallow from afar, but i deepen, the closer you get

nomatter how near to you, or far,

the only one you'll never forget...

the shine's what catches your eye at first

you're unaware that it can blind, too

addictive, appealing to your thirst

but what if this illusion binds you?


i'm hard as ice, brittle as snow

so hold me gently, but don't let go

i'm hard to hold onto, never without heartache

but i'm yours, and if you drop me, i will break


i only melt when you hold me

i don't want the edges to cut you

like they have, everyone else, already

yet, if i hurt you, it wasn't what i meant to do


you say you've got me, i wish you did

still holding me so gently, i might just slip

you think you've lost me, but there's always fate

and eventually, ice does evaporate...




                                                                                                
                                                                                                 [29.10.2008]