.flickers through city lights.

.memories of you come like stabs of pain

ebb and flow

fireworks in the night sky don't mean what they used to

they startle me

what about you? Are you hurting?

every time I think about how I'm over you

twenty-four hours later, I find myself wanting to cry

not like I cry for you, not that I want you back

just that every time I look to that place in my heart

the one that was taken by you

all I find is emptiness

and I want something back

what if I had answered that one letter differently?

I turn around and a spark of light catches my eye

caught by something that was once part of you

and once belonged to me

now it lies, collecting dust

i'll keep it with me tomorrow

i'll keep it under my pillow

you know I won't

I see a silhouette

leaning against a wall, his arm outstretched

he's wearing a navy blue hoodie, sleeves rolled up to the elbows

strong, tan arm, the silver kara, a red thread around the wrist...

Images. flashes of a similar arm

around me

turn away now. don't look. don't think. ugh, this sucks

slide shows with a dark-set background play in fast forward

every time something related to you invades my mind

all I need is a replacement for that space of yours. something that is hard to find

this doesn't feel like a me who was ever someone's lover

but I see flickers of the times I was

and I look into me to salvage that piece of me again

do we wish to know what we left behind?

the phrase "you complete me" comes to mind

but you never did

isn't that why we left?

and yet again, I reconfirm my theory

even though it was just to try and prove it wrong

memories. stabs of pain.

ebb and flow. I have to let go

but of what?.

.:safe in your heart:.

step back from the chaos, see the world from outside
you haven't put things in perspective for a while
remember me? you'd let go of my hand in the crowd
you were lost in the busy confusion, my voice drowned out by the loud
you think of me now, wishing i could return
but you don't need to worry, though i appreciate your concern

like all the dreams you see at night
i'm safe in your eyes
this world is so fast, let me rest for a while
i'll be safe in your smile

slow down, please wait, i'll catch up if you give me the chance
as long as you keep that place for me your heart, i'll continue to advance
i know i've got a long way to go, you've reached so very far
it got hard for you to stop, over 90 miles in your shiny car
but it's not what you desire, not like i am, never will be
you think you might have come too far ahead me to retrieve

believe in me and i'll come to you
i'm safe in your thoughts
i can't wait to get through all of these demands
and then,
i'll be safe in your arms

you're completely forgiven, though you left me alone
there was just so much else that had to be done
you had come close to giving up, but you waited
the time that we have lost can't all be compensated
but we have what we want; you-your dream, me-my dreamer
the stars seem set right, now that we're together

this world is too fast, now rest for a while
i'll be safe in your eyes
you'll find another dream now, a new start
but
.:i'm safe in your heart:.

..

Nothing

My heart stands still
Then why am I still breathing?
All I wanted was you, until
You gave me this wound that won’t stop bleeding

I thought you’d made it very clear
That you couldn’t care less, but how come
Your gaze, your thoughts are fixed on me, my dear
And when I needed you to be near
When I needed you to confess your feelings
You gave me an answer worse than any at all
You said nothing

So you know I’m with him now
Then why do you still haunt me?
I love him more than I love you now
But a replacement for you, none could ever be
You know it’s true
You know I just want you
To tell me
And yet, if words fail you again
You know all you gotta do is—

Say nothing
‘Cause we both heard what our hearts said
Though we don’t know what it is
That keeps us apart

You can leave it all unsaid and walk away
You can leave me standing dead and think it’s okay
In the end I’ll still know you’re hurting
I’ll always know what should’ve been
And all you had to say was nothing


My life stands still
Now that you're not in it
I fool myself into thinking I will
But how to let go, when I can’t forget?

My world without you;
What I am when you're not here;
Everything else in comparison;
And the one thing you could never mean to me:
Nothing

So, you’ve always known I'm a crazy dreamer
So, nothing will come of this at all
You're not a very good liar either
But we don’t need justification after all

So say nothing
‘Cause we both hear what our hearts are saying
Though we both know what it is
That keeps us together

You can leave it all unsaid and stay this way
You can leave the world behind and with me stay
But you won’t
And in the end
I’ll always know what could still be
And all you had to say was…nothing